sad :'( its all my fault

i very scare if one day i really lose u , i lose u one time i hope no second time ..very time u late msg, i admit i will think too much .. but i choose to trust watever u did.. i din think it so much .. u no time accompany me then u realise it.. u said sorry to me.. i think too much gain izzit im gonna lose u .. ?? u said sorry to me , wat should i reply .. i really dunno .. i juz wanna tell u , i always forgive u watever u did .. cuz i love u ! but did u trust i dunno ..u said all is ur fault.. did u think ? in a relationship no one fault bpth also have fault...important is honest each other , trust each other dis not should we did together ? i choose no smoke because of u...i really did it .. but did u trust .. i really scare i will lose u one day..cuz b4 , i ever lose one ppl i really loved..because wat he did to me b4 never honest to me and never feel trusted on him alr , i choose to let him go and i suffer to 4get him ..sometimes i heard some lyric song i will sad becuase it talking bout him , mayb i still notyet really forget him.. but my heart still wit u.. you ? i dunno .. it really take a long time to forget a ppl ..but take a short time to fall in love someone..i really know dis feeling .. i really take short time to fall in love wit u , u dun ask me why ? cuz the ans is love a person not need a reason.. i call u bii sometimes laogong.. i hope u will be mine 4ever...cant u knoe my feeling now ? i really sad.. suddenly sad .. and i scare .. T_T i hope we really can stay longer wat can i do ? juz shun qi zhe ran .. -.- in future nobody knoe but i hope i knoe wat goin on my future .. bii I LOVE YOU